「我」返黎了

很久已沒有用舊式CD player 聽歌。不知從何時起，若非與工作、事奉有關，不聽歌、不彈琴。

今日，d 閒情返來了，在CD機播的是角聲使團的振翅翱翔。 記得了，原來感覺係咁樣既。

遺憾 turns to 讚美

在我人生中算得上遺憾的事，去年發生了。前晚（年初二）記起這件事，心情、信心也就一直向下滑。。。

感謝神，年初三，教會分會有福音佈道會，講員對未信者呼召：『若有人在基督裡，他就是新造的人，舊事已過，都變成新的了。』我覺得是神對我的安慰，立刻眼淚就湧出來。原本懷疑可能不會被神使用、特別是在傳福音的工作上，但無意中又被安排了在新春福音佈道會裡作司琴。感謝神釋了我的疑慮。

今早，年初四，靈修讀到的，好像神給我再三的提醒，祂已赦免我的罪、遺憾："I am writing to you, little children, because your sins are forgiven for his name's sake." (1 John 2:12)

感謝父神，YOU ARE GREAT.

TTP

「人若自潔、脫離卑賤的事、就必作貴重的器皿、成為聖潔、合乎主用、豫備行各樣的善事。」 　　~ 提摩太後書　2:21



2014年7月9日，我做完第一份lesson plan，羅馬書15：14－16：23。

Surely Goodness and Lovingkindness Shall Follow Me ...

Mom is a testament of Psalms 23:6, "Surely goodness and lovingkindness shall follow me all the days of my life."  It's been a great and constant comfort to see God's providence for my mom in the past several years.  Mom and I weren't always on good terms, but God has amazingly turned things around in the last several years, and she is a blessing to me time and time again.

This is what I wrote on FB on the 25th of December,
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"I am incredibly touched to learn from mom's caregiver that mom sat quietly and put her two hands together and prayed to God today. I didn't know she still has that mental capacity to do that. Caregiver was so surprised that she called me to tell me about it. Yes, we know Jesus was likely not born on December 25th. But God can honor Himself and honor our celebration of Jesus' birth, and touch our hearts just the same. Thank you Jesus."
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I believe God must have prompted mom to pray to Him that day, as she has lost her sense of date/year since several years ago, and most of the time she doesn't seem to respond even when I pray for/with her.  I used to worry that mom wouldn't know to turn to God for strength and comfort as alzheimer disease progresses.  I don't anymore.  I see God's not limited by mom's illness; He can speak to mom whenever.  I used to feel bad about dad's coma in 2007; now I believe more than ever the sovereignty of God in it.  I used to worry about some dear friends because they seem to have chosen a path that's not of God's.  I will not worry, but pray with confidence because God is God and He is good.

Spiritual Journal

It's about time to return to blogging.  I decided that this morning after listening to a radio program about keeping a spiritual journal and harvesting it.

STM

After 3 short-term mission trips and six years, I thought I've gotten too old to work with the high-school kids, and I thought I don't have the burden anymore.  It's true that those trips gave me lots of joy and sweet memories.  But then, the heat, the packed work schedules, the discomforting, diplomatic meals with the officials, it's hard work.  When I chatted with an old teammate last week, she said we sometimes get lazy and want to stay comfortable.  She continued to say that it's really a blessing to be called to do such work.

Getting lazy -- am I?  The blessing of being sent to do the work for God -- do I still want it?

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I was a little early to play for the mandarin worship service at SGV church.  Auntie May was sitting there and shared with me,

  "I didn't like to share the Gospel with others.  Even though I knew that Jesus wouldn't return unless the Gospel is spread throughout the world, I thought it was okay for Jesus not to return, since I quite like this world.  But God said to me, 'May, the world is not going to stay the same.  It will turn into something that you will dislike.'"

 Auntie May continued to share with me,

"You know, it's true.  I never imagined that a son would murder and dismember his parent.  Yet it's happening."

I kept listening her talk, as I recalled reading that piece of horrendous news a few days ago.  I also didn't like reading about Manila's trying to develop herself as another Las Vegas, and I thought I'd read too many news of gruesome rapes in the past month.  I don't like how this world is turning into.  Pretty soon, there's no place for Christians like me to hide and live.  There's evil everywhere.

Jesus needs to return to make things right.

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I came across a sermon by Dr. Philemon Choi on YouTube.  Some 30 years ago, he was called by God to quit the job of being a medical doctor to work with teenagers.  Now he's already a grandpa, yet his passion has not diminished and he's still active with the mission he was called to do.

Am I calling it quit only after 6 years?  Is there a calling for me?

Feeling Helpless

 I am re-reading Yancey's book on Prayer and he reminded me that admitting that I can't do it and am helpless is the best condition to pray. 如果我無理解錯的話，it's like, 0拿，神，我唔得，我唔掂，我唔撐落去因為我無力了，祢上！

The Best or the Worst

Strive to bring the best, not the worst, out of another person.

健康真的很重要，這兩個星期甚麼也做不了。